This week sucks! Absolutely completely sucks. I’ve never felt more like a failure than I have this week when it comes to work. It just seemed to be one thing after another this week. I can feel the anxiety closing in and overwhelming my world. There wasn’t a day that I came home from work feeling good about myself. Every single day, I laid in bed feeling worthless and horrible about myself and my job.
I’m such a hypocrite. I teach and tell my clients that all you can do is your best and that failure only occurs when you stop trying. Yet, here I am not taking any of my own advice. I’m starting to realize why they all hate me saying that to them. I found a story online that I used for one of our community meetings where I spoke. I feel like sharing it with you now:
I Am Powerful
I am very powerful!
Whatever I set my mind on having, I will have.
Whatever I decide to be, I will be.
The evidence is all around me.
The power of my will has brought me precisely to where I am right now.
I have made the choices. I have held the thoughts.
I have taken the actions to create my current reality.
And I have the power to change it into whatever I want it to be.
With the choices I make, I am constantly fulfilling the vision I have for my life.
If that does not seem to be the case–
then I am deceiving myself about what I really want.
Because what I really, truly want, I will get!
What I truly wanted in the past, I already have.
If I want to build a billion-dollar business, I will take the actions necessary to do it.
If I want to sit comfortably watching TV night after night–
I will take the actions necessary for that.
Don’t be disappointed in my results–
they’re just the outward manifestation of my priorities.
I will be sure of what I truly want,
because I am sure to get it.
I found this one evening after coming home with a tight knot in my stomach while looking for something to use in my next time speaking to our entire community. Something about it hit me and motivated me. Did that solve any of my anxiety? No. No. It didn’t. This week I was forced to come face to face with the fact that I’m not anywhere close to where I want to be. I have a lot of work to do which is scary.
So what are you going to do about it?
First, I’m going to do whatever I have to get on my feet and running at work. If that means I get there early and stay late, then I will get there early and stay late as much as I can.
Second, I’m going to learn better time management. Time management is where I’m struggling right now and it’s overwhelming.
Third, I’m going to work on learning to not beat myself up over my mistakes. I’m going to work on taking my mistakes and turning them into lessons learned.
Lastly, I’m going to manage my anxiety. I’m going to do what relaxes me at night because quality work won’t happen if I don’t manage it.
How was your week? Did you feel the experience of failure this week? How are you overcoming it?