My Counseling Journey

In May, I started going to counseling for my mental health. I know I’ve talked about that before on here. Well, I finally saw the psychiatrist and was prescribed medication for my severe anxiety. When I first went to the psychiatrist,  I thought like my counseling intake appointment, I would be shaking someone’s hands and talking to a person face to face. However, that is not what happened. Instead, the lady at the front desk (I believe her name is Betsey) led me to a room with a computer in it. Yep, the psychiatrist is telemed and over a webcam. It was the most awkward fifteen minutes of my life. First of all, I couldn’t believe it only took fifteen minutes. Second of all, I couldn’t figure out whether to just stare at the webcam or his face. I found myself scratching anxiously at my arms and legs because my anxiety was rising. He suggested medication and CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) meaning he wanted me to take medication for my anxiety as well as going to bi-weekly counseling. As for my counseling, I got used to my counselor and really liked her. Once I brought my insurance card in, all that changed though. Due to her not being fully licensed, my insurance wouldn’t cover her which meant I had to switch to a fully licensed therapist. I just recently had my first appointment with her, and I’m not sure I like her. I’ve decided to give her more of a chance though and have my second appointment with her on the 12th. I used to think that I was alone in dealing with the anxiety and the depression. I used to think that counseling and therapy couldn’t possibly help me. I used to think that dreading every day was normal. It’s not normal. When I finally decided to get help, I started realizing that living like that was abnormal and unnecessary. I recognized that my thinking about receiving counseling was twisted (even though I am a counselor and maybe due to being a counselor, I felt like I should be stronger and not need help).

As for how I am currently? I’m slowly improving. I’m nowhere near perfect or 100%, but I’m on the pathway up instead of down now. I don’t dread every day nearly as much (just every other day haha). I’m learning how to recognize my irrational thoughts. And I was able to get laundry down which is something I hadn’t done in months! So overall, I would say I’m doing better.

 

What about you? Where are you on your mental health journey?

4 thoughts on “My Counseling Journey

    1. Thank you for taking the time to read it and comment! I am so sorry I am so behind on approving and responding. Life tends to get crazy and keep me from focusing on certain things sometimes. I’m glad you enjoyed it and hope you continue to find my material interesting!

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  1. Hey Alley, I’m glad to see you writing again.

    When I was taking psychology courses in college, my professor said every therapist needs a therapist.

    I can imagine hearing other people’s problems on a regular basis and sincerely wanting to help can create a lot of anxiety.

    Coming from someone who has gone through a period of obsessive compulsive disorder and who is currently married to someone who exhibits all the traits of borderline personality disorder, I know a lot about anxiety. CBT is an amazing tool to frame your outlook on life and I think everyone should learn the that mindset. I somehow developed most of the disciplines of CBT on my own and haven’t had to be taught it.

    I have only been to a few therapy sessions in my life but I always viewed them as investments. The likability of the therapist was a bonus for me but the effectiveness of their ability to teach and coach was a necessity.

    Everything happens for a reason. Every outcome is for your benefit. Even though the lesson might hurt the experience will be worth it. All it takes is to recognize the good in every situation.

    Wishing you all the best, Avi.

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    1. Thank you so much for your interest and insight! I am so sorry that I am so late in approving and responding to your comment! Lately, I have found it easier to write the articles and publish them than to go through my notifications which means now that I feel capable of focusing on that I have a ton that I missed! And she does seem to teach me a lot so I’ve decided to stick with her even though I don’t like her all that much so I agree that being able to each and coach is a necessity!

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